Ayu-mix II

Ayu-mix

Gackt's ai senshi live

I've uploaded a Gackt file, "ai senshi" for my sister.
It's the live performance in Hey!x3 Music Champ on 12th November, 2007.
So I thought why not share it with everyone as well.. *grins*
It's in megaupload. Here's the link : Gackt - ai senshi

Some perf caps...

KAT-TUN Playlist

it's updated.

Samsung AnyBand

CF with BoA and Xiah Junsu of TVXQ, as well as Tablo from Epik High and Jin Bora, the solo pianist.

tanjoubi no negau ~a birthday wish~

I am supposed to start anew
As now is the beginning of a new life for me
As the seconds tick to confirm my being
For the 24 years of life that I've been living

First of November
Is a day that I truly love
A day that I want to fulfil my desire
A day that I want to enjoy my time

But it's also a day that makes me the saddest
A day that tears will simply flow down
A day that none remembers
How important it is for me

It's sad
Because now I'm older
But life hasn't changed for the better
And it seems like I'm stucked here forever

I want to grow up and be like everyone else
But I can never have the chance until I die
Because the sickness is chained to me
As I had to bring it to my death

I hate it
I hate what it do to me
I hate what I had to go through with it
It made me cry all the time

I know that
But I still tried to get better
I tried to be a better person
With hopes for a better life

But it all just failed

Life failed me

God failed me

But I haven't given up

not just yet.


And now I'm 24
It's such a big number to me
A number that I thought can change me
And that's why I'm scared

I was always hoping that..
Once I turned 24, just look around.
And everything will smell good, look good, taste good.

But now that I turned 24,
And once I turned to see all around me
Nothing is anything for me to be proud of.

I wonder why...

Because I've worked hard
Really, really hard
And without failing myself with my limited capabilities
I still failed.. just because.

sigh.

I want to go on.
I want to be alive and useful.
I want to be good.
I want to live good.

...And I want to look good.


kirei ni naritai.
hontou ni naritai.
honki ni naritai.
sugoku ni naritai.

kirei ni naritai.
inside and out.

kanau ka?
kono chiisai no negai.
daijoubu ka na atashi?
kotoshi mo.....

kotoshi kara....

20071101 0255
(a day and time when I was born, 24 years ago, in 1983)

How I wish to go back in time and fix everything.

-iciviuja